For some time now I began to feel as if I was living in a stagnant point in my life, questioning the direction and where it is that I should be headed. Growing up I was always given the freedom to follow my dreams, and that's what I did - or at least I thought.
Inevitably there comes a time in our lives where we're faced with questions that expect answers right there and then. But I didn't have those answers, I didn't have a clue. I didn't know what route I wanted to take, and just when I thought I knew there was always an unspoken voice in my head telling me otherwise. Life felt like it was passing me by and I wanted nothing more but to be at a point where everything was as it should be.
Growing up, the things I loved to do most, my deepest interests, and quirky personality all made me to who I am. But when deciding a career path I accustomed myself to the social standards that everyone goes for, pursuing something merely for what it offered - a growing employment rate and easy money. I could never be more wrong than when I thought I could grow to love something over time. It wasn't something I enjoyed, but it simply made my parents happy, and the positive feedback that came with it didn't hurt.
Unsteady with my decisions, I never spoke openly about my doubts. I didn't want to seem like the girl who didn't know what she wanted when everyone around me seemed set. Everyone I spoke to was content doing what interested them, and that's exactly what I craved. Social standards should've never conformed my decisions, but we live and we learn. The second I decided to do things for myself and no one else, is the day I truly started living.
Pursuing my dreams to work in literature, I got a job as a writer for a magazine in the Big Apple. The city life has always been a dream of mine, and just like that, it became a reality. One thing I learned firsthand, is if something is meant to be it will be. There won't be any hindrances or circumstance that might get in the way.
If I hadn't taken the initiative to take my life back, none of this would've happened.
True happiness comes when doing the things that you love most. That for me was taking my hobby and bringing it to light. For years now, what I was meant to pursue has been right under my nose. If you've had a dream at mind or an idea at hand, pursue it. Something you might see as a little hobby or an area of creativity can just be what you've been missing.
