Human nature dictates that we are curious beings. For the most part, it is because of this yearning for knowledge that humans have progressed up to this point. We ask questions, test limits, push boundaries and innovate. We ask ourselves, and sometimes each other, the one question that the foundation of our curiosity is built upon; why? We do this because we crave logic and understanding, in all of its forms. The reality that we’ve created for ourselves makes the assumption that the answers are out there; it’s just a matter of finding them. However, there is a fatal flaw within this paradigm. The reality is simply thus – we don’t have all the answers.
The moment someone is taken from one of us, we find ourselves reluctantly and, often times, unexpectedly, thrust into this conundrum. We go through an endless back and forth of searching for some sort of answer to no avail. It conflicts with our inner desire for understanding, because the phenomenon of death is nearly impossible to comprehend. One moment, they’re here – breathing, smiling, laughing, growing, loving… living. Moments later, they’re not, and the moment is gone. Moments are finite and fleeting, that's what makes them so special. You only get so many, so you cherish the ones you have. Life is a collection of these beautiful little moments. They may be of happiness, sadness, confusion, anger, or exhaustion, but still beautiful all the same. We are the product of these moments; so that once we’re gone we leave them behind as memories for those who live on.
"She was the girl I could do everything & nothing with. Her smile was contagious and she was one of the most selfless people I knew." – Diana Rodolico, Delta Gamma at Florida State University
Morgan Carr, Vincenzo Libio and Kevin Boos shared precious moments together, with their families, friends, and within the entire community at FSU. Regardless of whether you were close friends, classmates, acquaintances, or didn’t know them at all, times like these leave heavy hearts throughout our community as a whole. We are all mourning the loss of a sister, brothers, friends, coming together in the midst of hard times to spread love and support to one another. Someone once told me, “Don't sweat the small stuff, and remember, it’s ALL small stuff.” Sometimes we lose sight of the big things because we are so consumed with all the little things. Our priorities shift and we become disconnected from our purpose, it’s easy to do, and unfortunate circumstances such as this one help us to re-evaluate.
“You told me how bittersweet it was to be moving on to your next chapter but you would be here every home game day because you loved game days and Morgan. I thought of how pumped I was to see you Friday when you came to encore, I told you that you were on the list man lol. I don't think I've ever seen you without a smile on or in an unpleasant mood and I thank you for that.” – Jesse Morgan, Brother of Phi Sigma Kappa at Florida State University
I have been asking myself that crucial question, “why?” ever since I woke up on Monday morning, September 7th. As I seek for, beg for, some sort of explanation that would help me understand why we had to lose Morgan, Cenzo, and Kevin, I know that such a thing just does not exist. The reality of the reality is that we don’t have all the answers, we don’t even have all the resources necessary to find them, and some answers just don't exist. But what do exist are the moments we had with them, which they shared with us, and memories to hold on to. We take these memories with us each day as reminders to never let a moment slip from our grasp that we do not fully appreciate, to not a let a breath fall from our lips that we are not thankful for, and above all else, to never forget the three individuals that made us so somberly aware of how precious these lives we live truly are.
