For years I was always told what to do, how to do it, and when to do it. I never had to option to decide what I wanted it was always what others wanted for me. This had to deal with relationships, school, career aspirations, and how I should be living my life. I never had the chance to stand up for myself and what I thought was right. I kept things bottled up and I finally reached my breaking point.
I decided to let go of those that wanted to control my everyday choices. I decided that I needed to make the choices for myself rather than have someone make them for me. I was hurt, I was broken, and I was lost. I became a different person, someone that I never thought I would turn into. I constantly listened to what’s others wanted for me and wanted me to do rather than doing the things that made me happy. I became a pawn in someone else’s game rather than creating my own.
These feelings piled up until finally I broke. I decided to let go of that part of my life. I started over, a fresh start, a clean slate, an opportunity to be who I wanted rather than the person everyone else wanted me to be. I began to focus on myself. I started to hangout with my friends more. I began to go on trips and to really start living. I spent my money how I wanted to spend it. I chose a degree that I wanted rather than what those around me wanted. I graduated, I started to really find myself and to do the the things that made me feel good. I stopped focusing on the negative aspects of life and I started to put myself first.
People constantly said I changed when in reality I found the person I wanted to be rather than the person they pushed me to be. At the end of the day you have to decide what is best for you and what makes you happy. Find your purpose, not the purpose that others set for you.
