Pain is, well, just pain and it hurts and it hurts bad. We say to ourselves every time we get a little heart broken or feel physically bad, I wish I just didn't feel. Although pain is hard when it's there, there is so much beauty in it too. If you didn't ever hurt emotionally or wasn't ever sad how could you ever point out true happiness or enjoy and appreciate the good times? If you didn't dislike anything in this world how could you point out the things you really loved and enjoy them so much more? How could you ever know the strength that lies of inside you?
When you are hurting it is going to feel like you're drowning in grief that you could never pull yourself out of or even come close to the surface but you will. You just have to learn how to swim. Let yourself feel the hurt. Let it rip you apart and expose all your wounds/weakness. It takes a lot of strength within one's self to admit they are hurting. It is only when the hurt is truly accepted and inside of you, it is then when you find the message that there is beauty in pain that you can fully let go and release all this pain. Then you realize the strength inside you that you never knew you had. "That's the thing about pain. It demands to be felt." - John Green
Just keep pushing when it hurts. I know it seems impossible but I know you can do it. Ignoring the pain does not make you strong but instead, it just keeps growing when left alone. You are strong and alive right now. Come to the surface with the pain and hurt and accept what it is and grow past it. Every ounce of pain you feel has its purpose I believe and it is only when you come to terms with your pain that you really can embrace and allow it to take its purpose.
Every hard thing that you go through teaches you a lesson no matter how big or small that may be. In the end of that battle, you are a stronger/better person because of it. When going through pain, you really come to terms with who you truly are and grow as a person every step of the way. When you go through hard times it makes you notice and appreciate the little things more, which they make life so much more enjoyable.
Some of my worst/hardest days I look back on and call them some of my best days because they shaped who I am today. For without these battles I would not be the independent, strong young woman that knows her worth and would take on the world alone if she had to. Because of the battles I have overcome I know that whatever the world decides to throw my way I will be ready for it and I will be fine, there is so much comfort knowing every day, that no matter what I will be okay. I would never change a thing, the pain made me treasure and enjoy everyday life more and I have never been so happy. So allow yourself to feel the pain and come to terms with it, grieve and grieve some more, throw things, kick things, scream and cry. Allow yourself to be so angry and so sad but don't wallow in the weight of your pain forever. Push through and overcome your battle, grow and make gold from it. You can do it, I know there will be light in your darkest days. Be thankful that you can feel because feelings are such beautiful things, even pain.
"The world gives you so much pain and here you are making gold out of it, there is nothing purer than that" -Rupi Kaur
