I had heard about the "Sophomore slump" before starting my second year in college. I heard it again when one of my professors brought it up, I remember turning to the girl next to me and asking: "Do you think thats an actual thing?" I thought it was just something that people say to scare everyone, but as I come to the near end of my Sophomore year I can say this has been one of the hardest years I've experienced. Maybe it is the "Sophomore slump" maybe its just not my year, or maybe its neither. However I can say that this year was very challenging but I can also say that everything will be okay.

I came back to school with a fresh mind very excited to start the knew year, I wasn't a freshmen anymore. That felt great, even though I wasn't necessarily an upperclassmen I felt a bit higher up. I had a lot of plans for the year and one of them was not losing myself, but somewhere in all the commotion I did. I lost myself. I do not know exactly when it happened, I think so much was going on for me to even notice that I lost who I was. One day I just kind of realized and stopped and asked myself "What is going on? This is not who I am" I let everything get the best of me this year and everyone around me kind of noticed that a lot was going on.

Now I am not one to throw a pity party, but a lot happened this past year that really damaged me. I lost friendships, I had my heart broken, and I did not always have my priorities in check. I was disappointed in myself because I let myself get to a point where I never wanted to be.So now was I supposed to find the person I was? Well I didn't, and I don't think I needed to be exactly who I was before. I needed some of those qualities however, I just did not need to be that exact person. I prayed a lot, I prayed to God to help me get back together. It did not happen automatically and to be honest Im still in the process or working everything back into place. One day at a time is the only way I can take things.

Sometimes we have these great plans, we picture how we want everything to workout in our minds and when they do not work out we do everything in our power to try and get them to. I think one of the hardest things to learn is that our plan isn't always the same as God's plan for us. It is very difficult when bad things are happening to not understand why they are and blame others, until something greater comes along and we see why we needed that bad thing to happen. I think it is important to know who you are, and to truly try not to lose sight of that. Know your worth, your morals, your values, your strengths, your weaknesses. Know all of that, but do not panic if you lose yourself. Back track start trying to fix the broken pieces, no one is perfect so no one can expect you to be perfect all the time. We young we are still learning many things, sometimes we need to lose ourselves to find ourselves. It is never too late to start over, it is never to late to reinvent yourself

So, is the "Sophomore slump" a real thing? I don't know, I can't tell you the right answer. You could have the best year ever or the worst year, but I want you to know that if you're having the worst year; everything is going to be okay.