Lately I find myself being surrounded by people who I thought I could trust but in reality, I cannot. To me, this sucks because when you think someone is your friend and you find yourself viewing that person as untrustworthy, it puts a dent in your entire relationship. I am the type of person that always starts everyone off with a clean slate when it comes to trust. I do not care who you are, where you came from, or what others have said about you. All I know is that once we become friends or even more, I start you off with a clean slate of trust.

Now of course in doing so I have found myself getting hurt a lot and as a result, it is hard for me to trust people. After dealing with countless amounts of people and realizing that most people only really care about themselves and what they can gain from a person, I found myself trusting people less and less as I grew older. It really is a sad thing when a person feels like they cannot trust anyone. It feels horrible to go through life unable to trust people out of the fear of being hurt, but at the same time giving them your trust because you feel like everyone deserves a chance.

For me trust is everything, and the minute I realize I lose trust for someone or someone does not trust me, it puts a strain on my relationship with that person. It really hurts when I do not trust a person because it feels like I am always walking on eggshells around that person. I feel like I have to be careful with what I say, what I do, and even how much we hang out. I tend to distance myself when I do not trust someone and it is mostly because of that person hurting me. When I do not trust someone, I feel at that point there is no comeback for me and that person. To me, it's like if I gave you my trust and you broke that, then it shows me that we were never truely friends, especially if you did whatever you did intentionally. It also makes everything the person told me up until that point a lie because I do not know what to believe at that point.

Trust is very important no matter what type of relationship is it. It is better for a person to be honest and hurt someone's feelings than lie and have a person not trust you when they find out. I respect people more when they are honest with me no matter how much it hurts because then I can look back and say, "well at least they were honest about what they did." Now, am I going to trust them after that? Probably not; however, the person would have a fast chance of being able to regain my trust. With all this being said not trusting someone is very hurtful for the person who got their trust broken. It makes it harder for them to look at people the same way, and it creates problems for future people. Trusting people is huge in relationships; people should really understand that, and think about the other person that may get hurt before they do something that makes them untrustworthy.