Do you ever feel like you’re stuck in a rut? Like your life isn’t moving forward? I think we all feel like that sometimes, and it is currently how I am feeling. I am two years away from earning my degree in secondary education and I am not positive that it is actually what I want to do. I feel behind and I feel like I need to be ahead of where I am now. You’re supposed to have everything figured out when you’re 21, right? Well, I certainly don’t.

I went to surprise my grandpa in Beaver, Utah two weeks ago. I hadn’t seen him in two years so it was a much-needed visit. When I saw him, I was so happy and he was so surprised. But, when I saw him walk, I was shocked. He can barely get around and takes the tiniest of steps. I felt myself watching him in case he was to fall. He lives on his own and it makes me worry about him. I quickly realized that we don’t live forever and we will all one day grow old and weak.

We had a lot of catching up to do and I told him everything that was new and happening in my life. The biggest takeaway of advice that he gave me was to always be happy in your life and it’s too short not to be. He would reference himself and say how old he was and how he cannot move as fast as he used to. Don’t take anything for granted and take things as they come.

The drive home, I sobbed. I was beside myself because seeing him in a weakened state really opened my eyes to life. I have been feeling very stuck and very confused with what I want to do with my life. I’m not positive I want to be a teacher anymore and it really scares me. But our conversation made me realize something: if you are feeling stuck, maybe it’s time for a change. You have to be happy with your life, have the people you love a part of it, and love what you do.

I have been dwelling on the fact of not knowing for a while now, but that’s not what life is about. Life is not about stressing over every little thing. It’s about taking whatever life throws at you and running with it! I have decided to let life lead me where I am meant to go. Life is too short to stress, especially in your twenties. We will not stay young and active forever; before we know it, we'll be looking back saying "remember being 21?" There will come a time where we will start to slow down and tell our grandchildren what I am telling you now. I don’t want to look back on my life when I’m 80 and regret all of the things I didn’t do or spent too much time stressing over. What’s meant to be will be, and it will be amazing.