As I'm writing this article on spring break, I can't help but dread going back to school. I wouldn't say I hate school but I definitely wouldn't say I love it either. As everyone is anxiously anticipating break ending and going back to school, I want spring break to slow down just so I can have more time at home. So many people think college is the best years of their life but I don't think that'll be the case for me.
A lot of people love college for the living and social life aspect and I think I'm one of the few people who does love school for the academic aspect. I've considered transferring, but no school compares academically which I think is the most important part in a school. I love my professors and everything my school has to offer academically, but I don't necessarily love the other aspects. I love knowing that the classes I take and opputunities I'm presented are helping prepare me for my future. While many of my peers focus on when the next party is, I now find myself now focusing more on when my next opportunity for my future will be. I completely understand people wanting to have fun, because these are definitely the years to do that, but I just find myself more focused on my future. I don't want to make it seem like I'm against having fun with friends, but sometimes I'm just not up for it and it seems like people don't understand that.
While everyone is enjoying time with their new friends they've made in college that they consider their life long friends, I can't help but compare every person I meet to my friends at home. Don't get me wrong, I've made friends who I consider lifelong friends but I don't think I've connected to as many people as others have. I know I shouldn't expect new friendships to compare to friendships I've had for years but I can't help it. I went to college expecting to make the greatest friends right off the bat so this is partially my fault. I don't always give friendships time to to grow or really try to get to know people, which is part of the problem and I can acknowledge that I need to work on that. At the same time though, some friendships just don't seem worth it.
While I'm at school, I constantly find myself missing home, which seems rare for my peers. I was the girl who always wanted to escape her small town, but now that I have I can't help but miss it. So many people dread going home for the summer, while I count down the days until I can be home again.
Sometimes I feel lost at college while everyone seems to be having the greatest time with close friends. I do love college at times but other times all I want is to be at home. I enjoy going out from time to time but don't see the need to all the time anymore. I know most people are concerned about their future, but some days I feel like I'm more concerned than the average person.
