There are obstacles I face

every single day

that are bundled together in a shoe lace

that are thrown at me constantly

I feel this wall of pressure

that i have no control over

i'm loosing myself

in my own head

they said you can change it

but it's shut so tight

I don't know what I'm good at anymore

I left everything behind to pursue my dream

that dream feels impossible

for all the obstacles in the way

I miss home so much

i don't care about the drama

i miss my friends

who always tell me the cold hard truth

i miss the beach

the wind was all i could hear

i made a new friend

and went on the best date

i feel hopeless

i feel my identity was stripped away from me

i don't know what i'm good at anymore

i have no contribution to this life

maybe i'm overthinking this

maybe this is all an illusion

and if it is,

so God help me.