Dear Dad,

Hey there, it's your first daughter writing a letter to you, aka the daughter who you're not proud of. I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill your expectations. I'm sorry I disappointed you. I'm sorry for everything. I know we didn't get along when I was little and we still don't until this day because you were never there for most of my childhood and even though you're here now, it still feels the same. When I was little, you were living on the other side of the world, and mom had to take care of my bratty self. You missed most of the important events of me growing up. I know I'm not the daughter you wanted because you prefer my sisters over me and they are way better than me in everything. You never showed me that you care, but I know deep down you care about me a lot. I remember I kept telling myself that you were the worst person I've ever have in my life because you never appreciated what I did, you were never proud of me even the little things I did for you and it sucked. I remember I used to cry every night because all I wanted is for you to appreciate me and I work really hard.

You keep telling me that your goal is to watch your daughters grow up and be successful. I want to make you proud and I am in the process of it. Maybe someday in the future it'll happen. I'm going to make you proud. But for now you're still in the phase "I'm not proud of your life choices but I'm just gonna go with it because you're my daughter and I'm still gonna support you." I will be successful in the future and your negative words won't bring me down but I promise you, I will make you proud Dad.

As I grew up, even though we live an hour and half away and we still don't get along, I care about you. We both don't know how to properly show our love towards each other. I wanted to show you that I appreciate everything you've done for me and I guess this letter is a way to show my affection towards you. I realized that if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be the person I am now. So, thank you Dad, even though you were not that great of a father. You had unique ways to teach me than other fathers do and that's okay. I'm starting to accept that you've worked really hard, lived in another country across the world for more than 5 years without seeing your family physically just for them to have a better life and for your daughters to have better future than you. Even though we still don't get along with each other, I will and still respect you no matter because I was taught to respect my parents. Thank you dad.

Aku sayang kamu papi.