I've felt somewhat off my game lately. I can't put my finger on the direct cause, but I've most definitely been in a funk.
School is hard. People are difficult. Friends aren't perfect. Boys are impossible. Home is missed. Futures are scary. Life isn't simple.
Most of the time, I can handle my weight in shortcomings. To be completely honest though, there has seemed to be some kind of force out to get me these past few weeks that doesn't want to let me stand on my own two feet for more than a second. Yes, I realize how dramatic that statement is, but those were my feelings and this has been the mindset I've stooped down to allow for myself lately.
During this period of wallowing in self-pity, which I categorized in my mind as the "lost weeks," I allocated for my curious self some free time to ask around and determine just how alone I was here in my thinking.
What I came to discover was that I could not be further from alone. I'm not sure if it's something in the water, but nearly all of the friends and peers I've talked with have been so sadly suffering from my same exact funk.
It sure is ironic how the feeling of loneliness seems to be such a common trend.
Naturally, once I realized that I was just like everybody else, and that I wasn't the only one with "lost weeks," I felt a little better about where I was standing--whether it was on my own two feet or not.
[Sidenote: I do not now, nor will I ever, condone justifying one's own negative thoughts/feelings/actions by uncovering the mere presence of those same thoughts/feelings/actions in another person's life. It's a terrible trend of self-deprecation that most of us seem to engage in way too often. Double the negativity doesn't make it okay, plus it's just plain unnecessary.]
However, there is a reason we all seem to have the same trending feelings, both good and bad.
The thing is, we're tough creatures to please sometimes... And just because we aren't feeling totally pleased during that sometimes, it certainly doesn't mean we're anything less than ourselves.
We're fallible people with a terrible knack for inconsistency. We're guaranteed to feel inadequate with ourselves every now and then--and that's OK.
I get it though, when does feeling inadequate ever sound fun? Never. I'm saying it's inevitable, but positively bearable.
When you find yourself sitting in one place, assessing your life as it stands, deciding you don't measure up to the standards you've [unfairly] set for yourself, say these words:
I am exactly where I need to be.
That's it. Eight words. Got it?
Understand that no matter what factors are currently playing into your life, you're bound to go through it all, and you can most definitely get through it all. You were made for it.
Being a Negative Nelly isn't wrong, it's actually painfully human, but we're often guilty of letting ourselves remain in that state for far too long.
Be fair to yourself, realize that you can handle life's lows and proceed to push forward.
