I haven't talked to you in over two months. Let me tell you, they have been the hardest two months of my life. Many nights I catch myself going to text you how I feel, only to erase it, knowing you don't care anymore.

As school starts again, I see you in the hallways. I get this twisted feeling in my chest every single time that makes my heart race a mile a minute. I used to see you less than a year ago as my best friend and now, three months later, I just see a stranger that I have far too many memories with.

I don't know why, but it seems like I'm suffocating when people talk about you. People tell me that you don't deserve me, and I shouldn't miss you. But somehow, you were my everything in such a little amount of time. I don't know how and why I am attached to you. You were a complete asshole most of the time.

I am sorry I pushed you to your limits, but I did it because I was scared. I didn't want what happened to happen. I was so worried about the stupid things, and I was blinded to everything else.

You've made me question if I was even worth it at times. I always felt like I was in constant competition with other people. I never knew how much this could hurt.

You taught me a few things, while you destroyed me at the same time. You played the game well. You played it really good, I should say. You made me believe the hurtful lies that came out of your mouth.

One day we were so happy, no fighting, no problems, nothing. But the next day, it was like you were bipolar, and it just went downhill from there. The fights got worse, and the conversations became dry; I didn't know you anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for you. I am happy you're happy without me. I'm not even sure if you were even happy with me in the first place.

I know you're an amazing person; you have one of the biggest hearts. You just have to find the right girl that makes that side of you come out.

I miss you, I'm not going to lie. But I don't want you. I miss what we had, and I miss the old you. The new you isn't who I fell in love with. I'm sorry and I wish you the best.