There is such thing as a 2 by 1 little box that has the capability of holding someone's entire future. This 2 by 1 box used to hold my future and now it hold something even better, my potential.
I met a boy one night on December 27th, 2017. I am writing this on December 27th, 2019, after I just found the box that once held my future, my ex-engagement ring, while cleaning up my apartment. This boy lit a spark in my heart I didn't know existed. I went with a friend of mine to a boys house to meet up with the boy she had been seeing before we went out to the bar that night. I did not know the boy she was seeing or who he lived with. We were there for maybe 5 minutes when his roommate walked down the stairs, pantsless, to retrieve his pants from the laundry room. He had no idea there were guest over. Instead of being embarrassed, this boy stood in front of me with his hand out and said "Hi, I'm Kendall." In that moment I looked into his eyes and I just knew. In that moment he looked into my eyes and he just knew.
I am not one for fairytales, but that night it felt like they did indeed exist. We spent the while night together as if we had known one another our entire lives. I remember noticing the sun coming up which prompted me to look at the time, which read 4am. I had to be at work at 8am so I left to get some sleep. We spent the next month together without skipping a day in between. He asked me to be his girlfriend two weeks later and then told me he loved me a month later.
We took a trip to the Bahamas in October 2018 where is proposed. He pulled out a that little 2 by 1 box, which held not only a ring, but an entire future.
It all felt so real, it all WAS real. Every feeling either of us had was real. That is what is so hard about it. Something that felt so real and was so real sometimes still isn't meant to be. And that is okay…
In July, I went home from my first month of law school and broke up with my fiancé. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do, but it was the right decision. We once had a future, but we no longer shared the same visions of that future.
Today, I am writing this as the end of the year is approaching. A lot of things have changed for me in just a short year. I started off engaged to my soulmate and best friend. Now I am without him, but I am not alone. I may not be in a relationship anymore, but I am not alone. I have grown so much as a person because of that box. Although that box no longer holds the future it indented, it holds the potential.
My name is Tes. I am a 21 year old law student with an empty box that no longer hold a ring, but instead hold what happiness that is yet to come.
