Have you ever lost yourself to the point that you had no idea where you were going or even who you are? Life can throw you into so many paths and give so many lessons that we learn over and over again. Do you ever wonder who you are as a person and where it might be taking you? Did you get lost on the path that you thought you were supposed to take? Don’t worry about it at all we all lose our sense of self from time to time.
From time to time you start to wonder what is it that makes you who you are. Is it your family, your past or both? For me, it's the both but so much more than that. The way I have grown up, I’ve always had people there for me and always was being picked on for being “too friendly” and being everyone's friend.
Nothing was easy for me growing up. I lost my grandfather at a young age and that took something out of me. To this day I miss him with all my heart and I go to his grave once a week and yes I know that really isn’t normal but it's what I do. I’m extremely close to my family where I would anything for them like take a bullet to the heart. My family means the world to me and nothing I mean nothing will ever change that or come in the way of my family and me.
I grew up in a huge family. From my mom's side to my dad's side god only knows how many members I truly have. My dad's side is mostly country and so outgoing I love it. Being around them means everything to me. When I'm down or in a bad mood they're right there to help and change the mood especially when I get to see my little cousins they brighten my world up like it’s the fourth of July.
My mom's side is all city really no country bone in them and it's harder to have fun on that side because they don’t joke around them, can’t do much either way. That's the thing I'm more like my dad's side of the family no matter what way you look at it plus I kinda take after my dad in some ways and my mom others nothing wrong with it, it’s just how I am.
I consider myself as country. I have my own style that's how it’s to spot me. I’m my own character and for people who don’t know me, I'm weird. I have my attitude issues, mood swings. I would say I'm normal but I'm nowhere near normal and being normal in my opinion is boring because who wants to be normal. Country means a lot to me. I grew up with it and the morals, the yes ma’am, yes sir. Country has been apart if me since I could remember and I love everything about it.
No matter what it is I face something always seem to come back and bite me in my butt. I’m so tired of getting hurt, being pushed around, people using me as a doormat. I'm stronger then anyone would like to even think I am and I'm done with being treated like I'm not human, I have a name please use it.
The things i've been through changes a lot about me everytime. The person i am today is someone who can hardly trust, who falls harder than anyone will ever know, someone that's scared to get close to someone because they leave in the end.
