Why did I date him? Why was I ever friends with him/her? Why did I have to go through this? Why did they leave? How did I get this far? These are questions that go through everybody's mind. For me these questions are continuously going through my head constantly.
Different situations you go through that make you question everything; people you've dated, people who have come and gone out of your life, different life events. Anything and everything you go through is life changing. You have can't live your life with any regrets because if you do and want to go back to "try again" you wouldn't end in the same spot you are now.
For me, I constantly am looking back on my life to see how far I've come. I never feel like I've been through that much, but looking back, I've been through so much more than I think.
I've had my dad walk out, I've had friends walk out, I've moved around growing up, I've had people come into my life, and I've been working on my confidence. I look back and I smile. However, if you look back and regret everything then what was the point?
Yes, I do wonder why I go through it all and how will it make me into a better person of myself. And I do wonder what would've happened if it all turned out differently. The answer is quite easy for me to answer for myself and everything would have been completely different. I wouldn't know the people I know now, my younger sister might not have been here, and I might not be with my boyfriend or met my amazing dance family or my best friends.
Everyone I had in my life that has left, I wonder why and what I did to make them leave, but then realize I'm glad that I was able to have them in my life even if it was for a short amount of time. I have learned that not everyone is meant to stay. Everyone comes in your life to teach you some kind of lesson. My dad leaving taught me that I should never rely on a guy to make me happy.
With people walking out of my life, it taught me to have a guard up and be cautious on who I let it my life. I am honestly thankful for everyone I've met and that have taught me that not everyone is the same. Everyone has different personalities and will help you in different ways. Having different people to help through your situations, will be wonderful in the long run. Having different perspectives on everything will make you look at it differently and maybe have a different outlook on it all.
I am a huge believer that everything happens for a reason. People leave your life to let others come in and help. A big example is my boyfriend. We were friends for so long and have gone through times when we didn't talk for awhile. We went 2 years without communicating. We would always find a way to come back together which helped us get closer than before. Then he was going in the navy and that made us admit our feelings for each other, bringing us to the happiest relationship, either of us have been in.
For everything you go through you should always look back and smile because you learned something, you should never live with regret. Regret means you regret meeting that person you now call your best friend. That boy that you dated that didn't treat you right, taught you what you should avoid in your next relationship.
It all happens for a reason, accept it and grow from it.