I don’t know, but I trust You.

What are you going to do after graduation? Who are you taking to semiformal? What do you want to do with your life?

We are at the stage in our life where questions about your future are a daily occurence. Whether it is asking about your future in five years, or this upcoming weekend, the truth is, we just have no clue.

I used to have my whole entire life planned out. The college, the type of spouse, the major, and the career; I had everything I needed to stay on the track that I wanted, but I didn’t factor something in. The path that I want probably isn’t the path that God wants for me.

The unknown is a scary thing, but how beautiful is it to know that God already has it planned out for you.

It is so easy to be discouraged in the fact that we have no idea how our lives are going to turn out. Everything you have ever wanted since you were a little kid could be stripped from you and you could be left just not knowing anything. We don’t know our major, our friends, or even what we are eating for dinner that night, and honestly, we shouldn’t want it any other way. Whatever God has planned for us is 10000x better than anything we could ever imagine for ourselves.

I’m letting go.

Of the expectations, the plans, and the thought I had of my future because they are just going to be broken into little pieces anyways. One of the most beautiful things to happen to a follower of Christ is to get our life wrecked for the sake of the Gospel. Whether it be our career choice, to the boy we thought we would be with forever, if it is not glorifying to the Lord, He will strip it from you. And although it hurts like heck, it is also one of the most beautiful ways that the Lord shows His love to you. He loves you so much that He takes it into His hands to save you from the hurt that could potentially be worse in the future. So I am letting go of the control that I think I have, but in reality was never in my reach. I am letting go because your plan is better.

“I give it all to you God, trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me”.

I am broken, beat down, and worn out, and yet you still stand tall. I am nothing but a sinner that should be sent straight to the grave, BUT you loved me so much that you sent your one and only son to die and raise three days later to save me from that death. The God of the universe loves me so much that He is willing to sacrifice His only Son for the sake of my broken heart. Since He gave me His everything, then why can’t I do the same for Him? So here I am. Giving it all to you God, because even though I am so filthy in sin, I am your daughter and your ultimate beauty shines through me. Personally, I believe it would be a shame if I hid that, so I promise to let you radiate through everything in me. The smiles to the tears, your beauty will shine.

So what am I going to do? Where am I going to end up? How am I going to get there?

Well here, let me tell you.

What am I going to do? I am going to put my full heart into a God that loves me more than anyone on this Earth ever could. I am going to live my life spreading Hid word either through His words being used through me, or my actions He has blessed me with.

Where am I going to end up? Because I have placed my faith in Jesus Christ and believe fully that He came and died on the cross and rose three days later, I now know that I will end up in heaven. I will be in a place that is more glorious than anything we could ever imagine on this earth.

How am I going to get there? I am going to get there by living my life not for this world, or myself but by living my life for the one true King.

I have no idea where I am going to be next weekend, let alone the next four years, but I do know that in the end I will be with my Father and if that isn’t a good enough answer than I don’t know what is.