21 years down the road, I feel like I should finally have my life together. As I am learning for the two-thousandth time in these 21 years, I do not have my life together and probably won't anytime in the next five years. There are days when I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I am reduced to a fetal-positioned ball of tears.

It's called balance.

Annnndddd I am totally kidding. Not about the crying, but about considering being on top of the world as the counter to being reduced to a hot mess of tears. I do not encourage anyone to put themselves in that state. It may be inevitable, but don't strive to be there. Anywayyyy.....

I feel am currently in a state of being lost. There are so many decisions throughout my day that I feel like I just don't have the answer to. I also feel like I just do not have time to juggle everything I want to. Rent is due, assignment due at midnight and I still haven't gone to the gym. Like how do people do it.

Hint...they're probably struggling too. Everyone shows it in different ways and EVERYONE copes in different ways. My most recent discovery is this...but it's a secret so come in real close. Ready?.......

I have decided that it is okay to feel totally bonkers. It is okay to not have every single move for the next three months planned out. And it is definitely okay to not know exactly how I am feeling right in this very moment. Honestly, that is part of the adventure.

At my age, I have a lot of life left to live. I am just scraping the beginnings of adulthood and still trying to figure out how to live without having my mom by my side. The real world is an intense place, and I feel like I am working through it to the best of my ability. If I get lost along the way, so be it.

Embrace those feelings of being lost, because coming out of those feelings has only made me stronger. Anytime I have found myself on my floor reduced to tears, I have this moment of defeat, of disappointment in myself for losing it in the face of struggle. Whether it be hours or days later when I conquer that fear or that struggle, I am a new woman on the path to success.

I have a lot to say to the people who face the struggles and don't run away...

You are amazing. You are a badass. You are more than capable to of being strong and getting it done.

These are the words I am able to tell myself when I get through my struggles, when I feel like I have finally found my newest, strongest self again. Ultimately, I will face the next struggle, but I will be more equipped in the face of fear.

Learning from these moments of feeling lost are the most powerful and helpful lessons. Learning that it is okay to have times in life where you don't know where to turn to next. There are so many minutes in a day, days in a year, and years in a lifetime. You won't be lost forever, but learning how to search when you are lost is a skill you will never regret.