I never wanted to be the girl who everyone was afraid to talk to because they thought they might be judged or made fun of. I never wanted to be the girl who put the fear of words in people. I never wanted to be the mean girl. I wanted to be liked and loved and admired, so I was the nice girl. But now I've had enough, so I am done being the nice girl. Here's why.
Countless times I go out of my way to help people, to make sure they are OK. They don't realize the time and effort I take out of my day to assist them. I am always checking up on everyone and taking care of people, without a "thank you" or anything in return. And I am sure you can guess whenever I need someone's help or even just someone to talk to, everyone is busy or they "just have a lot to deal with right now."
When I say done, I don't mean I will turn into this hate-monster. I don't hate anyone! I am just tired of everyone walking all over me, taking my kindness for granted. We've all heard the phrase "treat everyone the way you want to be treated," but if I treated you the way you treated me, you'd hate me.
Maybe I just expect certain things from people because I would do the same in a heartbeat. And maybe I still have hope for a world that has been hopeless since before I was born. I just find it strange how we are always reminded to be nice to everyone we meet, but nobody ever reminds us to be nice to ourselves in the process. Since when did waving to a stranger or saying "hi" to that person in the grocery store become a bad thing? And why does it register so many weird looks? Beats me. What happened to the time when we were friends with our neighbors? Nowadays I ask my friends if their neighbors are nice and their response is, "We have neighbors?"
Why is being nice seen as a weakness? That's what I want to know. You should be nice to everyone until they give you a reason not to be. You should not turn a cold shoulder to someone for no reason. If they did nothing to deserve it then don't give it to them. Don't let people push you around, but don't let them be scared of you. Be nice but hold your ground.
You have a right to stand up for yourself, you have a right to speak your mind (to an extent). You have these rights to be whoever you want to be, hopefully you choose to be the person who is nice but not a pushover. The person who people can come to with problems but also the person who can go to others with their problems. Be someone's go-to person, but don't forget to find the person you can go to.
Let's be honest; even nice people have their limits. So from now on I will be nice, I will be nice until it's time to stop being nice, and then I will destroy them.
