I don’t know if it is just me that is feeling this way, but do you ever wish you could go back to when you were in elementary school when everything was so much less complicated? When making friends was as easy as asking if you could share their 64 pack of crayons so you could color together (even though most people were quite skeptical about sharing their 64 pack cause I mean, c’mon, it didn’t get better than 64 different colors AND a sharpener). When the hardest decision I had to make was whether I wanted to play on the swings or the monkey bars at recess or what I was going to have for lunch that day.
If I could go back, I think I would take the time to appreciate what life was like when I was little. I’d appreciate the endless amounts of time I had to spend with my brother. I’d appreciate the places I’d let my imagination roam to without hesitation. I’d appreciate how easy it was to not sweat the small stuff. I’d appreciate how much time I had to just have fun.
I am rapidly approaching the age where I have to make the tough decisions and I have to manage my time and I have to be aware of all of these things that I didn’t need to worry about when I was younger. I am finding that as I acquire more and more responsibilities, I am becoming more and more nostalgic of the time when my responsibilities included cleaning my room and feeding my dogs. Now the responsibilities I have and the decisions I have to make are going to shape the way the rest of my life turns out.
The future is scary and it is unpredictable and I think that is why people have such a hard time trying to figure out what they want to do with their lives. I have found that most of the people I graduated high school with change their major in college at least once, if not two or three times. My own brother changed his major 5 fives! It is very normal for people to have a hard time choosing a career path because that one decision affects what you will do for the rest of your life. I guess I have felt quite lucky that I know exactly what I want to do with my life but the decision to pursue music was not an easy one to make, especially because the music industry is very unreliable and unstable. But, I decided to take that risk because when I thought back to when I was little, the one thing that always made me happy was music. It was something that was easy for me. And knowing that life will throw you nothing but tough decisions and hard times, I will definitely need easy every once in a while.
I have also decided that I intend on holding on to being a kid for as long as I can. If I’m having this much trouble figuring out how to adult now, I’m just going to assume that it will never happen, so easy fix: I will never become an adult.
