Often times, I have moments where I start to stress about life. I start stressing about that essay due in 2 weeks, that application due in one week, the packing I need to do before I go back to school, or the article I need to write before the end of the week. Then I stress more, about how I'm going to pay for college, what if I'm doing something wrong, or about how much my routine will change next semester
Whether you can relate to me or not, we all worry about things that come into our lives. Some worry just a little, but others begin to feel down and overwhelmed when stressed. Most of those entering into college had an idea that college would be stressful, but not everyone is able to manage that stress well. I find that it is easier to manage this stress when you are with your friends, but this isn't always possible. Music sometimes alleviates the stress, but only to a certain point.
People tell me that I just need to let things go, but I can't stop thinking about it. I don't stop thinking about it until I walk into the church on campus. Going to a Benedictine Catholic College, I have the privilege of having an Abbey on campus. I walk into the Abbey and just sit down. I think about all the thoughts that have been worrying me, and when I think about them in the presence of Jesus, I begin to feel these heavy thoughts dissolve. Things suddenly become clear, and my tasks and deadlines seem easy. This is one of my favorite things about going to Saint Martin's University.
I know many people who think I'm super holy and religious because I go to the church a lot. One person even told me "You are way better than me, you go to church all the time". But I am not who you think I am. I am broken, and imperfect, just like you. I go to pray in the Abbey when I'm struggling, and when I need help. We are not all perfect, and this is why it is essential to not worry about things you cannot control. Because I know I can easily go to the church on campus to pray to God in times of need, I am more confident. I know God will never put me in a situation that I cannot get through. It may be a challenge, but ultimately I will still get through whatever happens.
Whether you believe in a God or not, having someone who can be there for you and listen to you no matter what is essential. But I know that God Knows me best and I trust Him with all my worries and fears because He will comfort me and give me the strength and motivation I need to get through any day. Don't worry about things you cannot control. Bring those worries to God, and He will help clear your anxiety.
“Pray, hope, and don’t worry. Worry is useless. God is merciful and will hear your prayer.”
― St. Padre Pio
