As most college students, I feel the excitement as each and every week passes and the semester comes closer to an end. However, there is a feeling of bittersweetness to think that this semester is in fact coming to an end. The experiences I've had and the friendships I've made in the past four months have been life changing, and to acknowledge that this journey I just embarked on will fly by terrifies me. Because I technically reside in both the small town of Westbrook, Connecticut and the center of Boston, Massachusetts, it is clear that I have two alternate realities in my life.
In no way do I mean to say that I do not also miss my loved ones at home as well. In fact, I think about and speak to my best friends and my family every single day! I just really am going to miss walking out of my dorm room and seeing my friends faces as I have done nearly every day for the past four months! I just started feeling comfortable in this new home of mine, and now I will have to say goodbye for an entire month over Christmas break...
While it is healthy for myself to have a month off to finally decompress from the stress built up inside of me over this past semester, I wish I could start these last four months all over again and rewatch myself grow as an individual. Coming into college, I was so terrified that I would have no friends and I would end up hating my decision to move to Boston. In fact, my first month was a very difficult adjustment for me and I struggled to find a group of people I could truly connect with. After that period passed and I began opening myself up to the world, I would have never expected to become the person I am right now.
In the end, I think I will never again be fully satisfied with who or where I am with at the time. In other words, I have made friends from all around the world in the past four months, and will always be missing and thinking about them or my family and friends from home in my daily life.
