I bought a woman dinner today

Because she reminded me of you.

She couldn't find her wallet and only had a few dollar bills.

She was thin, and her eyes were sunken in

Just the way yours were.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because she was fidgeting around, and I knew food would help her sober up.

She said "sweetie, I can't let you do that,"

I told her that it was fine.

She insisted that I take her last few dollars

I told her to keep it.

I made a woman cry today

And I could only think of you.

She thanked me and said bless you more times than I can remember.

I told her to have a good night as I walked away.

The men left behind me

Talked about how great it was

That people still cared about other people.

"There's still good in the world."

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I wasn't there to buy you food when you needed it.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because your brother puts money in my bank account when I'm broke.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because we live in a world where drug addicts are told they deserve to starve.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because her smile reminded me of yours.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I hope someone bought you dinner when you were struggling to be clean.

I bought a woman dinner today

And would not look her in the eye

Because I didn't want her to see someone in me.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I wanted to do a good deed.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I can really use the good karma these days.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I wanted her to know that someone will always be there when times are rough.

I wanted so badly to be her "sign"

From the universe, from whatever God she believes in, from a guardian.

I bought a woman dinner today

And when my friends asked me why I said

"I don't know, she looked hungry."

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I've been trying to find closure since the day you fucking died.

I bought a woman dinner today

And my friend said, "she probably does that all the time, she's probably just a moocher."

I bought a woman dinner today

Because you would have done the same thing.

I bought a woman dinner today

In the hopes that I could finally let go of whatever the fuck I'm feeling

But I've only trapped myself more.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I was hoping to let go

But I find myself clinging more and more and more.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I hope you saw me, from where ever you are...

I hope you saw me

I hope that you smiled when I got home and cried about you again.

I hope that I made you proud, because even though you left this world all too soon, I still do little things that you would do.

I bought a woman dinner today

Because I wanted to buy dinner for you.

You and Bubs playing beerpong.

You don't even drink, and neither does Bubs.