To the boy I didn't 'waste my time with'

I wish you nothing but the best, you deserve to be happy with your life. We spent a lot of time together, we had amazing times, we also had bad ones. But I know I didn't waste my time with you. We both learned a lot from each other, and I will take those things I learned and remember them for the rest of my life.

When we first ended it, my friends tried to cheer me up by saying things like "you can live your own life now" and "you're free, now you can do what you want!" Now, I love my friends and I always will, they've given me some of the best advice of anyone. But in this case, they were wrong. I was living my own life when we were together; I made the choice to live it with you. I had freedom when we were together, I choose to spend my time with you. That's important for me to remember. I don't regret our time together, not at all, I wasn't 'wasting my time,' I was with someone I loved.

It may have ended, but that doesn't mean I don't still care about you, I want you to be happy. I think we ended it because we wanted what was best for each other. We haven't talked since that night but I remember you saying that we both saw this coming. We both knew it would happen, we just weren't sure when. Now I could go make up crazy stories as to why our relationship ended and I could make you look like the bad guy in all of them. There's just no point in doing that. If anyone asks, I'll tell them the truth. I loved you, I still do, just not in the way I used to. Our relationship just didn't work out and it's as simple as that.

I could make up this elaborate story about how I'm moving on and how great I'm doing, but I'm not going to do that either. I'm going to tell the truth. I am moving on, but slowly. I think we both are. I still find myself looking at your Facebook page sometimes, wondering where you are and what you're doing.

I find myself wondering if you're happy, that's become the normal and I'm fine with that. I should want you to be happy. We spent a lot of time together, we know a lot about each other, that's the way it is. I didn't waste my time with you and I'm not 'glad we're over.' I loved you, I still do, just not in the way I used to. I wish only the best for you, and I hope you can be happy too.

Love,

The girl you didn't waste your time with