When I distance myself and become cold don't run after me.

I'm not coming back until I say so.

When I become overwhelmed and unorganized, don't offer to help me.

I'm not asking for assistance.

Let me figure the catastrophic mess that I've made myself, by myself.

When I act out in self-destructive ways,

Don't come offering help.

You're not going to stop me

because that is just my character

My perception of my own self masks the correct perception of myself from time to time.

Don't become defensive either– it's not on you.

I'm not crying for help

Let me figure it out on my own

Let me self-destruct, recreate and repeat until I get back

Yeah– that's it. Analyze, recreate, repeat. Analyze, recreate, repeat. Analyze, recreate...

at least

Listen,

I disappear sometimes and I don't want you running after me

Please leave me be

It's my thing.

Solitude is my thing. Silence and being in my own presence is what I consider to be comfortable.

Stop labeling it as anti-social, rude and abnormal.

It's where I learn new things about myself, my antics, my behavior.

I'm comfortable alone. Leave me be.

I will gaze at the stars and read the same book over and over. Listen to dramatic music to worsen my mood and dance until the sun comes up.

Distractions such as these will help me get back

I promise

I do apologize for this behavior

but I'll be back soon.

Don't run after me.

Patience.

Just wait.