Dear whatever is coming,

If you were to drop everything and just land a job that enables your interest levels and intellectual levels to be at their highest point, what would you be doing? Is this something we’re ever even able to consider due to requirements, bills, relationships, etc.? Maybe this isn’t exactly something we are able to conceive and reach in our minds because of how suppressed existing precedents have become in our opportunities and the actual realm of possibility that we find ourselves moving towards. If I had no restrictions, I’d be working in a unique location on a foreign film set or television series as a writer and contributor. It’s always fascinated me how vast the projects and jobs are within magnificent productions like that, but this is something I haven’t had the chance to move towards or consider possible due to where I am right now in my studies and in my general environment.

I think about the choices I have made thus far and how lost I have felt at times and wonder if there was one soul thing that I could have done differently that would have pushed me more towards clarity or not. It’s not that I regret the decisions that I have made socially or academically, they’ve all helped me in meeting the people I’ve met today, take some great classes, work with fantastic professors, and experience culture and things different from myself. And, I would do it again, but then is what we really want unobtainable from the beginning? All a graduate and professional school fair caters to is those who have their researched plans and an accomplishable goal written out, even if it’s just penciled in, but what then if that doesn’t exist for all participants.

My goal here is not to have amplification full of complaints and whiney grievances, but just to set an emphasis on our changing world which doesn’t have clear alignments or options set for everyone. My goal here is to state the rationalizing out loud and hope that it gets clearer; a goal that opens up the vantage point of an undecided and lost student to the future world so that it will conform to and work for us.

Signed, an apprehensive undergraduate senior.