You don't get to tell me what I do and don't deserve. To me, my time is special—I don't give it to any guy unless its really important to me. You meant something to me, and that is something that shouldn't be taken lightly. When anyone takes time out of their life to be with you, cherish that person because they truly care about you. At this stage of my life, I'm learning what I do and don't want. Being single and in college is a time to learn that for everyone, but I know when something's not right with someone and will not drag it on. To stop in your tracks and disappear from my life out of nowhere is immature and not a way to handle any form of a relationship.
The only thing I hear from you is "you deserve better." The fact that you believe that the time I gave you meant nothing baffles me. That you think you're not good enough for more time with me, who has chosen to be with you, is an easy way out. An out that was unnecessary just to preserve my feelings. You did nothing of the sorts, only made me angry. And not just angry at you, but angry at the world, and angry at people who think they aren't good enough for someone when that person only wants you. What's funny is that I'm not hurt, because I've learned so much from my past and given others chances just like I did you. You have only wasted my time, in an attempt I took to open up to someone new that has now left my life just like the rest. You have entered the category of every other guy that thought I deserved better.
I'm over getting the excuse to escape something that could've been great. Being dropped by guys who won't give a relationship or an actual connection with someone the time of day. I've had that before and it's better than any shallow "thing" you could have with someone you don't really care about, the good always outweighs the bad and if it doesn't, that's when I deserve better. You do this thinking that it'll stop you from feeling and getting hurt, but it doesn't, it only makes it worse when you are ready to be with someone, cause you won't be prepared for the bad in it. Not giving me the time of day will hurt you in the long run, and never progressing our relationship taught me more, and you less.
I know when I deserve better, and you were right, it's more than you. And I hope the girl you do give the time of day is prepared for that wall you put up so well.
