Depression Is The Greatest Actor But It Doesn't Deserve Any Awards
Start writing a post
Health and Wellness

Depression Is The Greatest Actor But It Doesn't Deserve Any Awards

It takes more roles than you would think.

127
Depression Is The Greatest Actor But It Doesn't Deserve Any Awards
Alex Ivashenko

Mental illness can take on so many different forms but since I am not one to talk about those, I will talk about the one I know.

Depression. Depression is not simply sadness. While you can be upset, and it has become the norm to say that your elevated sadness is you being depressed, it's alright, I get it.

But depression does not just go away when something good happens. It can make it so hard to find enjoyment in things that you used to love.

Depression can look like me having an amazing time and smiling and enjoying life but once I'm in the company of only my thoughts, it can change so quickly.

Depression can look like tiredness. Depression makes me just want to sleep for days and avoid everyone that I might come into contact with. Depression makes my boyfriend upset with me for sleeping my mornings away or sleeping the day away. My depression makes me think about my next nap when I'm in class; it makes me feel like it is completely okay to keep saying "one more hour".

Depression and anxiety are me asking to reschedule our plans. My depression gives me a lack of motivation. My anxiety makes me think that this will make that person I bailed on hate me. My anxiety is me constantly worrying about what I'm not doing when I have no drive because of my depression.

It's a terrible cycle. It took so much for me just to begin writing this article. I couldn't find the motivation to get out of bed and grab my laptop and start pouring my thoughts out. Here I am minutes before my deadline writing about how I understand how horrible Depression and Anxiety are. My anxiety was telling me I'd get reprimanded if I did not submit anything.

Depression, in me, is a lack of appetite. Depression in others may be overeating.

Depression makes me feel completely unsatisfied with my appearance. In fact, I just bleached my entire hair because I wasn't feeling good about how my hair looked-- and honestly, I regret it.

My inability to control my emotions has also gotten me in situations where I make people uncomfortable because someone says something and I just start crying for some reason. It's just the depression...so I apologize. You did absolutely nothing wrong.

Depression also, unfortunately, consists of me having thoughts of worthlessness. I feel absolutely terrible about myself and I feel as if I cannot achieve anything when people around me are constantly reaching new heights even with their own problems.

It seems as if I can't get past this bout of depression and it is extremely frustrating. Sometimes, I get to thinking that the world would be a better place without me in it...but I know, I know that it is not.

I will get through this. I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by amazing people that are constantly lifting me up.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
Student Life

Waitlisted for a College Class? Here's What to Do!

Dealing with the inevitable realities of college life.

55298
college students waiting in a long line in the hallway
StableDiffusion

Course registration at college can be a big hassle and is almost never talked about. Classes you want to take fill up before you get a chance to register. You might change your mind about a class you want to take and must struggle to find another class to fit in the same time period. You also have to make sure no classes clash by time. Like I said, it's a big hassle.

This semester, I was waitlisted for two classes. Most people in this situation, especially first years, freak out because they don't know what to do. Here is what you should do when this happens.

Keep Reading...Show less
a man and a woman sitting on the beach in front of the sunset

Whether you met your new love interest online, through mutual friends, or another way entirely, you'll definitely want to know what you're getting into. I mean, really, what's the point in entering a relationship with someone if you don't know whether or not you're compatible on a very basic level?

Consider these 21 questions to ask in the talking stage when getting to know that new guy or girl you just started talking to:

Keep Reading...Show less
Lifestyle

Challah vs. Easter Bread: A Delicious Dilemma

Is there really such a difference in Challah bread or Easter Bread?

35635
loaves of challah and easter bread stacked up aside each other, an abundance of food in baskets
StableDiffusion

Ever since I could remember, it was a treat to receive Easter Bread made by my grandmother. We would only have it once a year and the wait was excruciating. Now that my grandmother has gotten older, she has stopped baking a lot of her recipes that require a lot of hand usage--her traditional Italian baking means no machines. So for the past few years, I have missed enjoying my Easter Bread.

Keep Reading...Show less
Adulting

Unlocking Lake People's Secrets: 15 Must-Knows!

There's no other place you'd rather be in the summer.

957684
Group of joyful friends sitting in a boat
Haley Harvey

The people that spend their summers at the lake are a unique group of people.

Whether you grew up going to the lake, have only recently started going, or have only been once or twice, you know it takes a certain kind of person to be a lake person. To the long-time lake people, the lake holds a special place in your heart, no matter how dirty the water may look.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

Top 10 Reasons My School Rocks!

Why I Chose a Small School Over a Big University.

185340
man in black long sleeve shirt and black pants walking on white concrete pathway

I was asked so many times why I wanted to go to a small school when a big university is so much better. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure a big university is great but I absolutely love going to a small school. I know that I miss out on big sporting events and having people actually know where it is. I can't even count how many times I've been asked where it is and I know they won't know so I just say "somewhere in the middle of Wisconsin." But, I get to know most people at my school and I know my professors very well. Not to mention, being able to walk to the other side of campus in 5 minutes at a casual walking pace. I am so happy I made the decision to go to school where I did. I love my school and these are just a few reasons why.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments