Hi, my name is Depression. I'm the opposite of vitality. I fatigue those who I claim host and leave these people uninterested in normal daily tasks.
Depression is something that I have suffered from for a very long time, and I apologize to my friends for this. I promise you that your efforts to try to cheer me up and be a ray of positivity all my life are the only reasons why I can try to look on the bright side. Each of you I appreciated and honestly do not know what I would do without. Sadly, I cannot be positive everyday the way that you all are. Most of the time I'm doing awesome if I'm at least having an okay day. I try not to let this drive how I live. I really don't try to let it take me over day after day. In fact most days I start off great and as the day goes on the grey cloud above me grows larger and larger. Most of you know me to be the girl that is always smiling, laughing (and making others laugh), and an overall pleasant person.
This being said I need you all to know that this does not define me. What defines me is the fact that I have the strength to get up and fight against this daily. I surround myself with people that lift me up for when I fell like pulling myself down. What defines me is that I push myself to function in making sure that I'm trying my best in school, at work, and in my social life. I push myself to find ways that push the cloud away and keep it at bay. What defines me is that no matter what the voices say, and yes I sometimes believe them, I fight listening to them so I don't lose progress. Who I am is the person you all have grown to love. I AM that caring person who would answer your phone call at 2 am no matter the reason is for you calling. I still am the person that loves to scream "Closer" by The Chainsmokers while driving down the road with the windows down. I am still the person that you can tell anything to.
Just because I suffer from a chemical imbalance does not mean that who I am is based off of it.
I go to therapy and I take my medicines so I can feel normal just like you. It might be rough at first, but if you'll be patient with me I'll turn out alright.
I want to thank my family, friends, and anybody who's life I've touched for all of the encouraging words. Thank you for all the prayers, good vibes, and happy thoughts sent my way. It is because of you all and how much you care that gives me the strength to continues therapy and to keep fighting everyday. I love each and every on of you so much
Sincerely,
Your Beloved Friend
