Dear Senior High School Me,
Yes, you. I know you are lonely and impatient to get out of the house right now, but chill. As I write to you I am sitting on my nail polish stained futon waiting for my roommates to get home to tell me all about their days. Anyways, I don't want to tell you all about the do's, don'ts, and how to succeed in college, I rather wanted to take a minute to tell you how proud I am.
You've come a long way, bud. While you wake up and go through the motions everyday, talk to the same people, and sprint down to your bedroom at the end of the day only to wake up and start over again, know that it is all worth it. You are worried and scared right now, no matter how much you won't admit it, but soon you'll be off to college in a whole new world.
You've met your best friends in just the first four months here. When you thought it couldn't get any better, life decided to be a little more generous by giving you even more people to love and souls to create with. I know you feel afraid of people's opinions and like your ideas mean nothing, but girl, people in college are WEIRD, in a good way of course. You're finally creating things and doing it for the good of yourself, not outside opinions. You don't see it now, but you really pour your heart into the people and things that mean the world to you.
I'll be the first to break the news that yes, you are still indeed single. BUT WAIT. Okay, I know that's been on your mind. Let me also be the first to tell you that you are straight up stupid for thinking that a relationship is what you need right now. You got some work to do first girlie. Being by yourself has given you so many opportunities this year, almost too many. But you are KILLING IT. (And occasionally feeling dead in the process, but you're fine, everything is FINE.)
I won't give anything away, but these opportunities are shaping you into such a strong woman. It's okay to be totally present in what life has presented to you rather than what your worry-some little mind is coming up with.
I hope this has put your mind at ease, at least for the time being. I know I said I wouldn't give you any advice, but enjoy the rest of your time at home and being around familiar people. You eventually start to miss the old familiarity as you start to create new familiarity. You are without a doubt ready for college and the challenges coming your way. Take every second in and appreciate the now, even if now is a painful wait.
