Anytime one of my friends, especially my best friend, gets a new love interest or boyfriend, I'm mixed with the feelings of excitement, plus a little bit of jealousy. Excitement because I'm happy for her and, let's face it, more likely than not that new boyfriend will have friends and it makes my set up situation in life a little easier. When I say a little bit of jealousy, it's not over the fact that she has a new apple of her eye and I don't. I'm usually more jealous of the guy and the time he's taking up that I use to spend with best friend. Unfortunately, I have to let it slide because I'm sure if the roles were changed then I'd do the same. Therefore, I suck it up, put on my happy face and stay engaged in her life like a good friend is supposed to do even if the time spent seeing each other has decreased.
As any--or most--relationships go, at one point or another the first argument, or collection of arguments, happen and for just a moment she's no longer wrapped around his finger. I stand by with tissues and a shoulder to cry on. And even though the two of them making up means things go back to how they were before, it's okay with me as long as my best friend is happy. For that reason, when the relationship starts going south as a whole and there is no "making up" to put things back together, I kick into protective mode. Anything he does to hurt her, also hurts me and that's not okay.
With that being said, I've been inspired to write this letter to the jerk who took my best friend and all that she is for granted.
Not only have you lost a prize, but you've apparently lost your mind too for not realizing that you had everything you needed and still felt that she wasn't enough. However, she's more than enough and she's more than you deserve to have in your life. You had no problem being around when it came to experiencing the best of her. You enjoyed her determination to succeed, the inquisitiveness that contributed to your deep conversations, her joyful smile and laughter, the selflessness which she possesses that causes her to job anything for someone she cares about, her sense of humor that can make the worst of days seem like some of the best, her ability to go with the flow instead of making things complicated, the beauty she possesses on the inside and out, her hardworking mentality which also pushed you to be a better man, her ability to see the best in people even if they give her a reason not to (such as yourself, in the long run), her heart full of love and care which led her to do anything for you, even after you had screwed her over once and then twice, and her love which she gave to you, and continues to give to you from afar though she owes you nothing and though you don't deserve even a drop of it.
When things started to go south and she didn't want what you wanted at the time that you wanted it (don't read into that too much, people), that's when you decided to show your true colors. If I'm being honest, you had all of us fooled. However, at one point or another, her closest of friends realized that you were no good for her even though you seemed like one of the "nice" guys who would give her all that she's given you in return. Due to her want to believe in you and motivate you to be the best version of yourself, it broke her heart to realize that it wasn't something you wanted a part of anymore. As soon as you let her walk out of your life, though she insists on having the littlest piece of her there every now and then to ensure you're doing okay, that's when you lost it all buddy. You've lost the prize and although you have a little piece of it in your hand from when you broke it, it'd be best if you returned that as well.
This is a letter from her best friend, because while she still cares about you too much to be stern and honest about how much of a douche bag you've been and how you never deserved her to begin with (even you, and your friends, knew she was too good for you right from the start), I have no problem letting you know. Yes, the truth hurts and that's likely why she still pops up every now and then to check in on you because she doesn't want to accept that you've shown her who you really are. However, this here is something you needed to hear, it's your loss.
And to my best friend (because I know you know that this is for you), keep shining and keep believing in the good that there is in the world. Never let some boy change who you are. It's for who you are that the people who surround you love and care about you. One day you will meet your match and he will fill what ever emptiness you feel in your heart from the past guys who have taken you for advantage. I know your ability to love and care about people who don't always treat you right will always remain because you've never been known to halfway do things. Nonetheless, always know that when that ability leads you to tears, frustration and confusion, I'll never have a problem with voicing the words in your heart (or mind) that you may not be able to speak in fear of hurting that person. You deserve all as much happiness, love, care, laughter, prosperity and more, that could possibly fill your heart. Even when that guy who is truly meant for you comes along, I'll never be too far away to remind you of who you are or what you deserve in the case that you lose sight of it.
Love,
Your Best Friend <3
