Dear High School Friends,
I know we haven't seen each other or hung out in a long time. Maybe some of us are not even friends anymore. But that doesn't mean I still don't think about you a lot. I think about all my high school friends and get very happy when I think of all the memories we made with each other. I sometimes lay awake and think about what went wrong. I often find the core problem to be me, and I blame myself for our falling out. But I know that I'm not the only one to blame. It's okay that some of us aren't friends anymore because I know it is for the best. I always find myself telling my college friends about you all as though we were still one big friend group. I miss the memories, more than I miss the people. With most of us being in theater together as well, we spent more time with each other than most friend groups did, which was a problem at times. We learned things about each other we wish we hadn't sometimes. Always knowing every small thing, but that was also because we went to a Catholic school with 500 kids.
I know sometimes we fought, or I would say really stupid or hurtful things, and I'm sorry for that. But I can't be sorry for the things you did back. People often asked me, "Are you guys actually friends?" Because they were seeing how we treated each other. I would say yes because that's just how we acted. And often times that's how it was. But then the times my feelings would be hurt and then people told me to take a joke. I know now that those weren't jokes and that you probably weren't being mean on purpose. But I did my best to move on forgive you. Most of the time I could dish it out, but couldn't take it and now I wish I could go back and do things differently.
Just so you know, I miss our friend group from junior year. It was the best high school year of my life, despite going through new changes in my family and struggling with school. You were all there for me even when you probably did not want to be. I tell myself that things will go back to normal and that we can all be friends again and do adult things, like we talked about in high school. But I know that will never happen. And that's okay.
For those of you who stuck around, thank you. Thank you for still believing in me. Thank you for not giving up on me completely and still wanting to be my friend. I appreciate the love and support you still give me and I hope our friendship will last for a very long time.
Overall, I just wanted to say thank you for some of the best years of my life. I appreciate it more than anything. You all hold special places in my heart and I will never be able to thank you enough for the lessons I learned. I wish you all the best in everything you do and hope that life is what you dreamed it to be.
Sincerely,
Your crazy high school friend
