Hello, it’s me.

Just kidding, that's corny. But is it too late now to say sorry? Cause I’m missing more than just…

Alright I’m done, I promise.

I hope you’re doing well. I think about you and all the great times we had. I also think about the things you did that drove me up a wall so there’s those memories, too.

While I’ve been thinking though, I realized, I owe you a thank you.

Thanks for giving me a chance. It wasn’t until after we broke up that I realized how hard it is to find someone you want to spend that much time with and that you’re willing to commit to being faithful to. Having a connection with someone is special, so thanks for that chance.

Thanks for introducing me to your parents. I loved getting to know your family. Our generation is pretty noncommittal and meeting the parents is a step that few “talking” couples get to. So thanks for your faith in me and that I wouldn't embarrass you or lead your parents to question why they were putting you through college.

Thanks for the few nice dinners and dates. I realized what a good date is and what a bad one is. Unfortunately we had both. But it gave me the groundwork for realizing that it doesn't always have to be Netflix and Chill but I deserve to have my salad and wine paid for once in a while.

Thanks for the times that you were honest with me and the times you weren’t. You made me realize how important it is to tell the truth and you showed me how badly it hurts to be lied to. After being burned by your lies, I take that into consideration now when it’s hard to tell the truth.

Thank you for the hurtful words you said when we broke up. Those insults thrown in rage were surprisingly accurate. I am bossy. I am controlling sometimes. I’m NOT perfect. Those criticisms allowed me to not be that way in my next relationship. It also made me realize that no one else is perfect either and to stop expecting that.

Thank you for telling all your friends I was crazy. I was probably better off without dating/hooking up with them anyway.

Thank you for moving on. Even though the first time I heard you were with someone new, it hurt a little, it helped me move on too. I am glad you’re able to be happy after I broke your heart. I hope she doesn’t.

Finally, thank you for loving me when you did. Now that I know what it’s like to be loved, I know what doesn't feel like love. I know what I deserve and what I don’t. I know what are my “deal breakers” and what really shouldn’t matter. I know what’s worth the fight and what I need to let go. I learned what it meant to be a good girlfriend and a bad one. I realize I was both too.

In the end, we weren’t right for each other but I’m thankful for that.