Dear Big Sister,
Where do I even begin? I think my opinion about having a Big Sister like you has come full circle and I can tell you why.
When we were younger I did just about everything you asked me to do. I wanted to be just like you. I remember the first day of Elementary School and I was so nervous. There I was a little blonde 1st grader with a huge backpack and my white socks and purple clogs. I boarded the monstrous school bus right behind you, the eldest of them all, a 4th grader, knowing I would be okay if you were by my side.
When I got home from school that day, my teacher had called asking why my parents sent me to school with no socks. Turns out you had told me to take them off because apparently the socks and clogs look was not in at our Elementary School. You were my role model and I wanted nothing more than to follow in your footsteps and make you happy.
I can't believe the amount of times I fell for you saying I make the best hot chocolate just because you were too lazy to make it yourself. Or even the famous, "You are way better at being the boy part," every time we would sing a duet so you could be the girl.
As I made my way to middle school, we started to become more distant and you moved on to High School. We fought over the smallest things like who had taken whose top or who used whose makeup. I began to not appreciate you as much as should have. But when High School rolled around, it showed me how grateful I was to have a big sister like you.
During the awkward and difficult times of High School, you always knew how to make me feel better or help me solve my issues. If I had a problem at school with a boy, you would be the first person to volunteer to beat him up. If I felt insecure or not good enough, you were always there to tell me how much I meant to you. Seeing you go to College was so hard and not always having fun car rides to school or movie nights on the weekends was something I missed immensely. But as hard as seeing you go was, it made me appreciate you like I used to.
I noticed how much you were there for me even when you weren't really there in person. You taught me how to be a role model and leader. I could be everything you were to me, to our littlest sister. I was there for her when she cried and needed advice and did always get mad when she stole my clothes. Now that I am in college I look back and thank you for the support you gave me and for making me a better version of myself even if this means taking my socks off.
When people ask me if I like having an older sister I would always joke and say she was so bossy and got everything she wanted. But that was so far from the truth. You were the one person I could count on even when I didn't think I needed anyone but me. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and always seeing the best of me even when I didn't.
Love Always,
Your Little Sister
