Dear Anxiety,
I hate how you make me feel. I try my best to get away from you, but you just follow me. It has been so long since I have had a day without you, you are part of me now, and I wish you weren't. If I didn't have to worry so much about you, I would enjoy life a little more. I would be able to hang out with friends instead of make plans, and not follow though. I would be able to talk more, and not worry about what anyone else thinks. I would be able to get through the "what if" moments, without breaking down. I would be able to live my life the way I truly want to, without having to look over my shoulder for you.
Some mornings, I don't even want to get out of bed because I know I have to face you again. But one day, I will be able to wake up without you being the first thing I see and feel.
That day, I will wake up and feel normal again. I will be able to go through my whole day without you ruining it. I will finally have gotten through this rough patch and be on the other side. I will feel a weight be lifted off my shoulders. Living with anxiety is hard, but I wouldn't be who I am today without it. But I know that one day, I am going to wake up and you won't be in charge of my life anymore, I won't have to worry about second guessing everything I say or do. Each day up until then, I will continue to fight, and I will continue to work towards a better, healthier me.