There's nothing I love more than waking up in the morning snuggled in my warm bed, seeing the sunshine peaking through my window, and feeling at ease. However, that contentment doesn't often last that long before a thousand thoughts come flooding into my mind.

I worry, and I worry too much. Sometimes about the past, sometimes about the future. Most of the time I'm worrying about things that are done and can't be changed and things that haven't or may never even happen. I think the reason this happens to me is a combination of two characteristics that I have. One being that I think way too much, and the other being that I feel things so strongly. When I feel too much negativity my body tenses, my stomach drops, and I feel sick, I hate the way I feel. Not only do I hate feeling that way, I think I'm scared of it in a way. Which leaves me anxiously anticipating the next time something is gonna bring me down. So, I worry about things I've done that I wish I hadn't and I worry about things that life may put in my path that I might not enjoy.

I think the solution is to realize i'm putting to much weight on myself, life happens and not always favorably. Situations unfold, people react how they feel they need to, and the only part that any of us have control over is how we let those things effect us. I'm going to stop dwelling on negativity of the past and trying to problem solve and avoid situations of the future. I'm going to try my best to let go a little more. Worrying really can be detrimental to the soul and I don't want to do that to myself so often.

I think I was under this illusion that by worrying and thinking so much when I encountered these negative situations I'd be able to take them in my stride rather than let them knock me down. The part of that theory that is missing is i'm undergoing all the negative emotions during the process of worrying, i'm elongating situations that could be put in the past, and feeling the wrath of situations that truly may never occur.

I'm going to put in effort to stop putting in so much effort. As paradoxical as it may sound I think it could be really good for me, and all the people out there who worry as much and as often as I do. I would like to spend some more time living in the present, and enjoying the positive moments of life, and I highly recommend it to everyone.