There are so many people that make an impact on our lives.

Some people make good impacts and others make you want to never go through that situation ever again. Hopefully, the people that we encounter will better our lives and bring joy to when you and that person are still together. But what happens when you lose that person forever?

Your life may never be the same again. Being hopeful that things will look up is just a small dagger to the heart.

A little over a year ago, I lost my best friend to cancer. She was one that made my life better and brought more than just joy to my life. She gave me a place to sleep when I needed it, a shoulder to cry on when I needed it most, and happiness when I thought I would never be happy again. I miss her more and more every day.

I think the worst part is that there is so much that I want to tell her. I used to keep her updated on every small detail of my life and she never hesitated to listen. I have been experiencing the best milestones currently and all I want is for her to be here to experience them with me. Getting married, bringing the best 4-year old into my life, everything that’s happening at college... I just want to be able to tell her all about it.

I know ill get a lot of responses saying, “Why don't you just pray to her?” Maybe it's not being able to talk to her but more about craving the response back. Her voice. Her presence. Her smile. Her sassy attitude. Something that lets me know she’s still here and still with me.

Then I sit back and think about the positives, all the things to be thankful for, all the memories that we share. I got years of her friendship, that I can look back on and I wouldn’t change that for the world.

If I could tell he anything right here, right now, I would say thank you, I love you, I miss you.