Winter break is something every college kid looks forward to all semester. That's because winter break means no classes, no homework, a break from living in a dorm and you get to go home! But what happens when you come home and It just doesn't feel like "home" anymore?

Since I've been home I have felt out of place. Almost like I don't belong anymore. Which is something I never expected to feel. It's such an odd feeling to be at home but not feel like I'm "home".

I have been home several times since the beginning of the semester, but this time feels so different. Everyone has their own things that they do and I feel left out. I used to take my brother to school and bring him home. Now, my grandparents get him from school and my mom brings him to school. Even though it may seem like a small thing from an outsider's perspective, it's hard for me to adjust to not doing the same things I used to when I was in high school. When I lived at home I had my own little schedule.

Since I moved away to school I had to create me new little "home" and "family". Luckily, it wasn't that hard to do thanks to my roommate and the amazing friends I've made since I started school. But now that I'm back home, I have gone from an environment where I shared a room with my best friend to a room all by myself (which is very lonely). It's difficult going from something you're used to everyday. Not sharing a room with one of my best friends has been an odd thing to adapt now that I am home for the holidays.

Going back home as made me realize a few things. First off, I love my home. I know this contradicts everything I have said, but I still can't help but to love the place where I have grown up. Even though it feels different and it is a little crazy sometimes, I missed being in my house and I missed the people in it. I have also realized that I love my Asheville home, where I know I have friends that I can call family. I am an extremely lucky person to have so many people who love me and make me feel loved and welcomed at different places.