Last year, my junior year, I couldn’t help but loathe talking about college. Not only did I not know what I wanted to do career-wise but I also didn’t know where I wanted to go to college nor what I was looking for in life. I felt really lost and it seemed as if everyone around me was figuring out what they wanted to do and knew exactly what they wanted out of life. I felt like an outcast. After pondering many career paths, I still was unsure. I wanted a job that would make me happy and of course a college that could help me work towards that job. I wasn’t sure where to begin and I wasn’t sure I wanted to begin. I’m 16, I thought, why should I have to decide the rest of my life now? I wanted everyone to stop talking about college immediately. I was scared for the future more than anything.
It wasn’t until I started to realize what I wanted to do that I wanted to start talking about college. I realized that I wanted to be an english major in college and eventually become a writer. Okay. I can do this, I thought, I can finally talk about college. I found a college that I really liked. I even went there for two weeks during a summer program, which really solidified my want and need to go there. So it was settled. The two things on my checklist, know where I want to go to college and know what I want to do, were complete and I felt accomplished. Finally, when adults asked me what I wanted to do I had a well thought out and intelligent answer as opposed to my answer not too long before which was, “Uhhhhh I don’t know yet.” I was so excited to tell everyone about my plan. I was much more excited about the future rather than scared. It seemed at this point that not as many people as I thought knew what they wanted to do or where they wanted to go to college. Now I was the one who had it figured out and others that answered with, “Uhhhhh I don’t know yet.”
So here I am now. Still excited for the future but back to being bored and annoyed by talking about college. This time around, I already know what I want to do and I want to skip ahead to that point. I don’t want to talk about the application process, I just want to be accepted. Now I’m not worried about being lost, I’m worried that my plan won’t go accordingly. I’ve heard so much about the college application process from not only my high school but the people that I’ve talked to at the college I hope to attend. All the conversations are getting redundant.
I wrote this article because I hope there are others that feel this way too. I hope I’m not the only one that’s sick of talking about college. I hope that someone feeling this way can read this article and feel reassured that they are not the only one.
