METATHESIOPHOBIA is the fear of change.
Don't get me wrong, I love change -- to a certain extent.
As I sit in my apartment, I realize how quickly that change is coming. Once I graduate, that's it. No more school, no more dollar nights at the bar, no more homecomings, no more socials, etc. Yeah, the no school and no studying aspects of that sound amazing. As for the other things, however, those are some of the things I will miss the most. I am so ready to be done with school and all of the homework and D2L notifications that comes with it. But what happens after? That's the part I'm worried about.
I'm a senior in college and have been worrying ever since the new school year started about what I want to do once I graduate. Sure, I can get a job that falls somewhere under my major or one of my minors, but what if it doesn't? What if I'm struggling to find a job in my field or even realize that a job in my field is just not for me? How does someone even get a job with a communications degree?!
I'm scared of the path that lies ahead that I have no knowledge about. I've set my goals and I've set them high, so why am I so afraid of what's to come next? I guess I am just trying to realize that no path is the wrong path. I've got to just try my best and see where things go. If that doesn't work out, then make some changes and see where the next path takes you.
Why am I even writing about this? Because I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. You'd think as a senior in college and having many years to think about my future that I would have this stuff figured out, but I don't. And that's okay! Most people don't know what they want to do for the rest of their lives until years after they graduate from college. It is normal. Don't let anyone judge you for not knowing what you want to do or where you want to go. Your path is not going to be the same as everyone else's.
I'm not going to rush into finding the perfect path for me. I'm going to embrace the fact that I don't know what is next for me. Life will change. The world around me will change. People will come and go and that's okay. Everything happens for a reason and I am confident that no matter how close or how far my goals are, I will reach them sooner or later.
