I am awoken by the obnoxious sound of my alarm at 6:30 every morning. I dread it. I wake up two hours before my school day even begins due to my commute. My commute of an hour is filled with everything bagels, Kid Kraddick In The Morning Show and cars full of people doing the same as I am, getting to school or work. I make it to my classes roughly thirty minutes early, a buffer time to calm down from the drive. I sit through my classes and when I'm done, I go home or I go to work. Sometimes if I feel up to it, I'll sit on campus for awhile and work on some homework in the library.

My days consist of driving, school, and home. I often wonder if I'm missing out on anything by not living on campus. I see the events, the people walking around with friends and I wonder if I am truly getting the experience I originally expected out of college.

When I dreamt of college I always relished in the idea of on campus living. I always thought about what my dorm would look like, who would be my roommate, how I would decorate said dorm and all the wicked fun activities you see college kids partake in. I longed for early morning yoga sessions, concerts in the quad, beach trips with friends, trips to new places, new experiences, possibly joining a sorority, and so much more, but I haven't gotten it.

I often wonder if because I haven't experienced these things if it means that I'm not getting a "real" college experience. I go to school, I get my education but not much else. It often makes me wonder what a real true college experience is. Is it what I've fantasied about? Is it something entirely different? Will I ever get the experience? If I don't will I be content without them?

I don't really know the answers to these questions that often circle around in my brain. I'm just a college student commuting, sitting on the outside looking in..... hoping I'm not missing out.