You are not alone.
I know the feeling. You miss your high school friends, atmosphere, and comfort. Nothing feels the same, and you feel like you will never find "your people." Everything was easy in high school. You had the same friends for years, so you don't remember how it feels to be lost and alone. I promise it will pass. It may take a while, but it will get easier.
The most important thing to remember is that there is definitely more than one person in the same boat as you. I can guarantee that if you were to walk out onto your floor right now and said, "who feels alone," at least one person would respond. It happens to nearly everyone, and it is okay. It is important to remember that, as cliche as it sounds: You. Are. Not. Alone.
In time you will find your people. You will find out who loves the same things as you. It will take a while, but you will find them. It doesn't come easily because the best things in life never do. Again, another cliche, but I quickly learned that cliches are cliche for a reason. I didn't find my true best friends until the very end of first semester and the beginning of second. Unless you are super lucky, your people will be harder to find.
It is also normal to be physically upset and homesick. I cried almost every night for the first few weeks of college. Looking back on that now, it seems dumb but I was uncomfortable and out of my comfort zone, and that is how I responded. But because of my inhibitions, I didn't go out and meet people early on. Now I know that I missed out some fun outings and bonding times because I was holed up in my bed FaceTiming my high school friends when I should have been out meeting people.
I think the most important thing to remember is that you cannot live in the past. You cannot cling onto high school and those memories. Sure there will be people from high school that you stay close with, but not all fifty people who signed your yearbook, claiming you will be BFFs forever. It is hard to let go, but it is what's healthy. Most people are not meant to be in your life through it all. I have had to let friendships go that meant the world to me for many years, but they weren't meant to last into college.
Honestly, the most important piece of advice I have is to call your mom. Or your dad. Whoever you want to call but pick one. You will never feel more appreciation for your parents then when you're laying in bed, sick as a dog, with no one to get you soup and medicine. My mom gave me some of the best advice and tough love. She usually told me stuff I didn't want to hear, but it was for the best. I don't think I have loved her more than I do now, and I have continued appreciation for all she has done for me.
My final thought is to tough it out. It is hard now. I know. It was hard for me, and I will tell anyone who asks me that. I had some hard lows and some great highs, and I am even better now because of it. I have found my people. I have found my passion. Most of all, I have found an incredible love for my school and the people in it. You too will soon understand the undying love that comes with the true college experience.
