I know not everything in life is easy. It shouldn't be, and some of the best experiences in life are the ones that come from pain and lost relationships. As a girl, if I've learned anything in life it's that girls hold grudges. Not just the grudges that last for a couple months, but the ones that last years and years. And well, to be honest, I don't want to be that girl that holds on to the pain that happened seven months ago, let alone five years. The frustrations that I deal with are the ones that will depict how I spend my days, weeks, and even years. If I can conquer them one day at a time, in a year they will no longer matter. Sometimes the pain we feel and the heartaches we face set us up for something incredible. The friendships we lose, the loved ones that depart from this life, are people that were meant to leave at this moment.
In some sense I love the frustrations I have; they motivate me to do better every single day. At other times, I can't help but wonder if the ones I face and the ones that stick around and taunt me, are the ones that are trying to make a point to me. Did I make the right decision? Is it worth it? We never know; we make the decisions that we either want or the ones that make the most sense. I face one every day that has me wonder on whether or not I made the right decision, but every day I give the same answer because deep down I know it's what I want even if others don't agree with me.
To face my frustrations every day is the biggest accomplishment. Some people avoid them, some run away, and some just deny the fact that they exist, I was one of them many months ago, but now I face them. I want to face them. I want to be the best version I can be, and the one thing I need from facing them is to look at those frustrations and get closure. Some people cannot get that, and that's when you are faced with the fact that the grudge is not worth it anymore. In some cases, it was never worth it. Look in the mirror and ask, is this worth holding on to? 98 percent of the time, I can honestly say that it's not worth holding on to. It's silly, stupid pain that means nothing for your future. I am stronger than that; you are stronger than that. You have made it this far, and nothing can change that.
Face the frustration one day at a time. There is no time limit on becoming happy again.
