Honestly, one of the hardest things in life is admitting when you've messed up. Nobody wants to confess when they went left in life instead of right. We've always been told in life to strive to be perfect so we try to hide and cover up the holes we've dug ourselves into. When in reality, those holes are what we need to keep the foundation complete and keep building ourselves up.

I was fresh into a new relationship when my girlfriend at the time caught me talking to my ex still. Yes I know, what was I thinking? I can admit that I was one of them who jumped from one relationship to another. Feelings from my previous relationship were still there and so that has to be the worse way to start something new. Besides me and my ex continuously talking throughout half of the time I was in my new relationship, I had more than one stone that I tripped over. Needless to say, my downfalls began then.

You're reading about a girl who never got noticed throughout high school. So the minute I started getting that was while I was in a serious commitment with someone. I had a bad habit of soaking in all of the attention I got outside of my own relationship. I flirted around and felt like I needed more of it then I was getting from my own girlfriend. So I searched for it on the outside.

Sadly that wasn't all. Besides keeping my ex around I flirted with the one person my girlfriend would have been crushed by. I flirted with her ex, the person who treated her so badly and hurt her deeply. Even all the hurt I knew she had gone through, my care for her went out of the window when I did that. It truly hurts me to write this still to this day. But I can hold myself up while admitting that I started the downfalls in that relationship that turned into a very toxic cycle.

It took me six months after my breakup and multiple nights crying on the bathroom floor for me to see clearly. It wasn't until then that I had realized all that I've added to the destruction of that failed love story. I owned up to every single slip up I made. I was just lost within myself and unhappy. I became everything I didn't want to be.

So listen deeply to my words. Beating yourself up over mistakes you've made doesn't do anything but get you stuck in a rut of feeling sorry for yourself. You screwed up? Now take something away from that and keep moving forward. Turn the tragedy of your infidelity into an amazing lessoned learned and never go back. Owning up to your mistakes is the biggest and boldest thing you can do. Remember, you are not your mistakes. Nobody is perfect and nobody ever will be so stop trying to strive for that. Instead, just reach to be a better person then you were yesterday. Reflect back on what brought you to that point. You didn't just cheat on your partner for the hell of it. Either something is lacking in your relationship and or there is some sort of unhappiness within yourself. A person who cheats is always fixable, but it's up to that person if they truly want to change or not. "You can't help somebody who doesn't want to be helped," and that starts with yourself. Pick yourself up from that bathroom floor and wipe those tears. You are human, we all make mistakes. This is all just a part of you learning in life and the small bumps you must come across.

True love for one another is seeing someone in their darkest hour and forgiving them. That goes for yourself. The biggest thing you must learn after making a mistake is forgiving yourself. You are a better person than that shadow depicts. Those moments of weakness open opportunities for growth. Believe that you can change and want better for yourself.

"Even when you learn from your mistakes don't expect to never make another; you will and that's the OK." - Demi Lovato