Life is always changing.
Personally, I am not a very big fan of change. I am used to things being a very particular way, as I am used to myself being a certain way. It sounds selfish, but something around me changes and it doesn't really benefit me in the beginning I am not fond of it. It can be a store closing down, family gatherings not being like how they were, etc.
However, I'm slowly learning that change can actually be good. Even if it doesn't benefit me specifically, it can take a positive turn for me in general. If it benefits my family and friends around me, I no longer really get jealous of their changes, but I am proud of them for their changes .
In the few months, I've been a sophomore in college, I've noticed I've changed a good amount. Last year, I was more introverted, quiet and sad. This year, especially in the past few weeks, I've noticed I've become more outgoing by joining clubs and having an actual position in them, meeting new people, and just being more outspoken in general.
For a long time, I would be really sad and down, and not know what to do about it, other than just suffer through it. I found this year, that by keeping busy I was able to bring myself up. By being in charge of a few things and knowing all the tasks I have to do, I can never wait until I check off all my tasks at the end of a certain time. Just the feeling of accomplishing things, keeping busy, and being more productive, has really had a positive effect on me. I'll admit, there are many times when I still get down and anxious, but I've found that keeping busy has really reduced the number of times I've felt that way.
As I said, I am not really in favor of change, whether it is good or bad. But lately, I'm realizing more and more how to accept change and move forward. To everyone else out there feeling just like me or that can relate to me in some way, it does get a little better, one way or another.
It's okay to think for yourself sometimes. You can't make everyone happy no matter how hard you try.
I do thank my friends and family for helping me through everything. I don't know what I would do without all of you. I love you all. :)
