As the trees zoomed by I stared out of the window, my head clouded with thoughts about the day to come. I had known it was coming for a while, only now it felt more real. I still couldn't accept it, though. This would be the first year of my life that I wouldn't live in Tennessee. Of course I would only be moving one state over, but that still meant I had to start an entire new schedule.
Moving meant I was to start a new school, which meant making new friends. I wasn't entirely unsocial, but I wasn't exactly a social butterfly either. I hated school, so I knew it would be harder for me this year. Everything was new, and I didn't know what to think about it.
You see, sometimes things are a little hard to comprehend, while other times you just know. Moving was one of those things I couldn't comprehend. It's not like we had planned this for a while, my parents kind of just decided we were going to move. I couldn't protest or put up a fight because that wouldn't change anything. We would still move and I would still end up in a new place with no friends. That's just how things work. You do what you have to, not what you want to.
It's important to keep an open mind. I knew that, I just didn't want to. I didn't want to move, I wanted to stay where I was- in my comfort zone, away from the real world. The real world was scary. It was filled with people I had never met, with people who I was raised to run from. Of course, I was raised to fight too, but there was always that feeling you got when you heard about the bad things people did that told you to fly instead of fight. I don't know, I guess I was just a confused girl in a world of people who thought they knew everything.
Everyone seemed to think that. All around me people had answers, while all I had were questions. Why did things happen the way they did? Could I change that? When did time start to go so fast? I didn't know. I didn't know the answer and I didn't know how to find out.
Moving didn't feel like a good choice to me, it felt like a horrible one. There would be so many new things to adjust to, and I didn't know if I could do it. It was all too much. Yet, I still kept my mouth closed. After all, I wasn't one to complain.
