I fell for you. I fell for you so hard and gave it all that I had left. I was at an all time low but at the end of the day I did everything I could to put you first. I made sure to provide for you and to stand by your side through all of your daily struggles. I put off my feelings, wants, needs, and responsibilities only to put yours first. I lost friends because of it. I was involved in more conflict with family because of it. But most of all I lost myself because of you.

Your words echo in my mind on constant repeat. Words like “you’re selfish” and “you’re a liar” haunt my every move. The fact of the matter is I let these words and so many others that i can’t bare to say become acustom to my life when in reality they weren’t true.

You may have seen me as “selfish” but I’m not selfish you were the selfish one. I put all of your needs first. I did whatever I could to make sure you were the one happy at the end of the day not me. I paid all your bills while you got to stay at home. I worked my ass off to make ends meet for us all while you got to do whatever you wanted. I paid for our dates and trips to the bar to make sure you got the chance of get out of the house while I was content with staying home. I made sacrifices for you. I gave up friend and family time in order to stay by your side. I spent hours on end making sure you were happy and okay. But yet I am the selfish one. I never asked for a dime. All I asked was for you to treat me like your girlfriend rather than a pawn in your game.

You claimed all I did was lie to you, yet all I did was make sure you were happy and that you had everything you needed. I lied to myself saying I was happy but In reality I was broken. I lost myself in you, and the sad part is I’m not the only one who noticed that. Friends and family told me you were no good for me but I was so caught up in it and didn’t want to listen. I knew they were right but I wanted to prove them and myself wrong. In the end I was the fool.

You broke me. I lost my self confidence because of you. I hit an all time low because of you. I believed the things you said about me and started to hate myself. But in reality the words you said were just a reflection of who you were rather than who I was. You will no longer be able to define me. I am done with that aspect of my life.

You lost a girl who would do anything for you. Who would buy whatever you wanted or needed Who stood by your side when things went south and you had nobody else in your corner. The girl who prioritized your needs before her own. The girl who gave you the world when you couldn’t even give her a star. The girl who loved you with her whole heart. The girl who never turned her back on you. The one that ignored everyone else because she thought you were different than what they said or saw. But that’s on you and one day you will realize it. I can promise you one thing, you’ll never find a girl that will sacrifice her needs to meet yours and let you stay at home while she is busting her ass pay for your bills and funding your wants or needs.

The sad part is I will always have a love for you even though I was the only one who’s heart was in it while yours was out somewhere else.

Thank you for breaking me when you promised you wouldn’t. I’m glad I got out before things got worse.