When it comes to emotional walls, it is so much easier to build them than to break them.Before my first semester of college, I had built a strong wall to hide pain I was feeling. I had just broke up with someone I really cared about and I was trying to cope with the pain. My first semester of college was rough. I didn't make many friends. Eventually everything I was feeling came out and I lashed out on someone that would later become one of my good friends. I really did not start breaking any of these walls until recently. As I slowly broke them down, the better I felt about what was happening in my life. I appreciate my friends I have made more. I am more expressive when it comes to playing music. I feel like I have emotions again. For so long, that wall kept me from feeling what was needed to be felt. With the wall, I did not feel happy at all. I was trying to get through the day. Now, I am so happy and I do not think I would be here if I continued to let that wall stand.
I can tell when other people have walls now that mine has been slowly crumbling. To those people that still have walls, I promise you that life opens up once you break them. Of course, there might be a little crying involved because you are being vulnerable and you are tearing down something that you felt like it was protecting you. Trust me. That wall is not there to protect you. It stands there to block you from feeling. It blocks anything that is good in your life. Walls do two things: keep things in and keeps other things out. If you do not let out some of the things that are holding you back, you never get a chance to feel what it is like to be free. Not letting a certain thing go will make you feel like you are in chains and honestly, that is the worst feeling in the world. Being free is so exhilarating! Letting other things into your like people and adventures just adds to being free. You will have so many great experiences that will make you happy that it will make you wonder why you had the wall built in the first place.
So, to my friends and others that have walls built, take a chance of tearing that wall down. You do not know what is waiting for you on the other side.
