As we near the end of the semester, I can't help but think about how lazy I've been and how much effort I could've put into the beginning of my second year.

To be quite honest, between the months of August and October, I was doing pretty fine. One of two things screwed me up. BREAKS!

I don't understand why we had so many days off from school, but it made it exceptionally hard for me to transition out of the summer, because only God knows how much I wanted it to stay.

As much as I would like to blame my laziness and effortless on the amount of days we had off of school, it's really no excuse for all the days I was in school.

I can't be the only one who is desperately looking for a way out of these exams. I spent hundred-something dollars on textbook rentals, and have yet to turn a single page. I was lucky to find the majority of books I needed for this semester via internet, but I still can't tell you the difference between Descartes and Locke.

Around the time of November, I found myself drowning in my own tears, and occasionally catching a case of the sniffles. Because of my lack of readiness for any of my classes, I fell into a depression and deprivation of sleep.

Am I one of those students who feel as if they will fail a class, but in actuality get at least B-? Yes! But heck, I go through a lot of shit too. Aside from school, I work part time, I maintain a social life, and I’m part of fellows program.

There were moments where I wanted to quit everything, and become a stripper. But of course, not many people can handle my curves and natural beauty.

The sad part about all of this, I secretly enjoy the adrenaline I get from rushing to hand in assignments. I love the self-inflicted drama to race to the finish line, which in this case is the end of the semester. Sometimes I forget that this is only my third semester of college too. Therefore, I have another 899 days until I graduate from this school. But, can I even make it through this semester's finals week?

I look forward to the tears and panic attacks that comes with the package of being an obsessive student that can’t settle for average, but-just-might-have-to-because-I-can’t-even!