So, to begin with, I waited a little while to write this article. I wanted so badly to cut you with my words and make you feel all the pain that I felt. But, here's what I have decided, you are not worth it.
Playing games with anyone's heart is absolutely cruel. We live to feel and we feel to live. You do not get to take away someone's trust because you are bored. Women are not your entertainment. We owe you nothing.
Picture this: I am sitting on my bed, reading an article for class and trying not to notice you're already late for our date. Hours late. I try listlessly to complete my homework but then I realize I was stood up for the second time. I let you back in, I let you become a part of my life again and you did the exact same thing to take my trust. You did the exact same thing that broke my heart the first time.
You know the cheesy old saying "fool me once?" Never have I related to it more than in that moment. Perhaps it was my fault for letting you back in without asking too many questions. Perhaps it was stupid for me to assume that your excuses could be valid. But, at the end of the day you are the one that has to live with the feeling that you hurt someone. I am okay. I am all pieced back together. It didn't take very long. But, I cannot imagine how guilty I would feel if I hurt someone more than once.
I am not angry. Not anymore. I wasted very few tears on you and I honestly want to thank you. Because now I know I deserve better. I deserve someone who will make a conscious effort to include me in their life. I deserve someone who will value my needs and opinions. Heck, I deserve someone who actually shows up. I deserve better than you.
The problem with people like you is that you assume I am going to be a heaping mess of tears for days on end. But, I don't need someone to complete me. Is it nice to have a boyfriend? SURE! But, I am a boss all on my own. So, thank you for being another brick in my path to being the best me I can be. I stepped over you and I am on my way.
One tear was astronomically too many for me to waste on you. My heart is precious, but I worry for the other women than you may impact. I worry for my friends and my family that have to encounter someone who plays with their heart like a Gameboy. Emotions are not a joke and feelings are serious. Please stay away from us until you can figure out how to be kind all on your own. We don't need you.
So peace out boy scout. We can do better. Until you figure out how to exist without making people hurt, I suggest you maybe take a Netflix day and watch some Mr. Rogers Neighborhood. Perhaps then you will start to understand what it is like to care about someone. Really really care.
