On Tuesday, September 13, 2016, at approximately 11:27 pm, I finished A "Court of Mist and Fury" by Sarah J. Maas. And woah boy, was it a wild ride. It's been almost a week and I'm still not over it, and no one in my life actually understands how messed up I am after this book, so I figured I'd put all my crazed, fangirl-y thoughts into an article in case anyone else out there is desperately searching the Internet for someone to freak out with. Here I am, folks, and if at any time you want to yell about this book with someone, hit me up because I have an infinite amount of pent-up emotion in regards to this story and its characters.

Note: This article is full of spoilers, so please, please, please don't read it unless you've read the book!

But before I get down to business, I need to establish the acronyms I'll be using, because I honestly don't feel like typing out those crazy long titles all the time. FYI, "A Court of Thorns and Roses" is abbreviated ACOTAR and "A Court of Mist and Fury" is abbreviated ACOMAF. And now, without further adieu, I give you my "book talk."

I want to start out by saying I enjoyed "ACOTAR" a lot, even though I didn't really expect to. I'm not really sure what my issue was going in as I don't remember hearing anything negative about the book or anything, but I'm annoyed with myself that I allowed it to sit, unread and unloved, on my shelf for months before even picking it up.

But while I enjoyed "ACOTAR," the verb "loved" comes nowhere close to describing how I felt about "ACOMAF." I was blown away. Maas' world-building was (as usual) phenomenal, and the depth she gives her characters will have you falling in love with them left and right. You get a very rich new view of the beautiful, complex universe she's created and you get introduced to so many new people through the badass main character Feyre. Let's just say you should get ready for your socks to be knocked into a different hemisphere.

But enough with the nice review stuff, let's actually talk about this book. Whenever I think about it I pretty much have to do yoga breathing just to try to be able to think straight. I loved everything about this book so much, but for the sake of making sense, let's start at the beginning.

Tamlin is trash.

I never really loved him, even in "ACOTAR." I think I pretty much just assumed that he was the love interest, and therefore I should like him. But listen up tall, blonde, and stupid, don't you dare lock Feyre up in your pretentious manor. Ugh, what an absolute tool.

Speaking of Feyre, I liked her in "ACOTAR," but she became so much more of a badass in "ACOMAF." She got herself out of an abusive relationship (and into a new one that I'll never stop screaming about), learned how to use her powers and figured out how to live after all the stuff that happened "under the mountain." I went from "okay, yeah, she's pretty cool" in "ACOTAR" to screaming "yes, girl, get it" in "ACOMAF."

While we're on the subject of Feyre "getting it," I want to say that the most surprising thing in this book, for me, was the sheer amount of smut. I was so not prepared for a "new adult" book. When I started, I figured it was just another nice little ya fantasy romance but it was definitely no such thing. So many people have said stuff about the smut in this book, and I have to admit it was definitely not something I'd want someone younger than myself reading, but I was so here for it. Man, oh, man does Sarah J. Maas know what she's doing.

In ACOTAR we saw very little of Prythian, but the scope of "ACOMAF" is much more broad. Specifically, Feyre spends a lot of time in The Night Court, which is the home my heart has always been searching for. Snow-capped mountains? Stars so breathtaking they make you want to cry? Jasmine-scented breeze? Did you mean my dream life?

There are also a ton of new characters introduced, and some of my favorites were definitely Rhysand's "inner circle." Mor was somehow simultaneously bubbly and "If you touch me I'll slit your throat so fast you won't even have time to blink" and I loved it. Amren is...interesting. I liked her character but I really want to know more about just what in the hell she is. Where is she from? What can her powers actually do? Hopefully, we'll find out in the next book. Azriel has it so bad for Mor it makes me emotional, and Cassian is so sweet! Him sparring with Feyre and basically saying he would allow her to hit him to get out her anger and sadness about Under the Mountain ended my life.

Alright, we've arrived at the part of this article I'm going to have to struggle to write without losing my s**t.

Rhysand.

High Lord of the Night Court. Death incarnate, night triumphant. One of the best literary characters I've ever had the pleasure of reading about. He's madly attractive, broken, sarcastic, and oh yeah the most powerful High Lord ever. S**t, I already have chills. I love Rhys so much I would literally offer my life in exchange for his guaranteed happiness. I loved him when we were first introduced to him at Calanmai in "ACOTAR," and even when everyone was Under the Mountain, I would have paid big money to be painted up every night and dance with him. And I thought it was pretty much the cutest thing ever in "ACOTAR" when he was the only one who bet on Feyre at her first trial.

It wasn't even close.

In "ACOMAF," Rhys redefined cute. He crashed Feyre's wedding (in the most drama queen-esque way, I might add) and saved her. He always made sure that she made her own choices. He trusted her, trained her, believed in her. He was kind and genuine despite his own brokenness. Despite the fact that he had nightmares so bad that he couldn't sleep in the same house as his friends because he was so frightened that his magic went crazy. Despite the fact that he had shouldered the weight of protecting Velaris and his people all on his own.

Oh, and despite the fact that he knew Feyre was his mate and didn't want to tell her for fear it would make her feel obligated to stay with him. Their mating bond is one of the many reasons I'll never be okay again after reading this book. When I found out they were mates, I literally lost my mind. And that scene in the cabin where he starts crying talking about having to watch her die? Goodbye sanity, it was nice while it lasted.

All in all, I cannot think of a book I've read recently that captivated me and made me as invested in the characters as this one and I don't know if I'll ever get over the ending. There's so much I can't cover in this article simply because no one wants to read the full 100,000+ words it would probably take me to get everything that I feel about this book down, but suffice it to say: holy s**t.

"'She is my mate. And my spy. And she is the High Lady of the Night Court. If they had removed her other glove, they would have seen a second tattoo on her right arm. The twin to the other. Inked last night, when we crept out, found a priestess, and I swore her in as my High Lady.' 'Not consort, not wife. Feyre is High Lady of the Night Court.' My equal in every way; she would wear my crown, sit on a throne beside mine. Never sidelined, never designated to breeding and parties and child rearing. My queen."